i know no one's watching this so it dosen't matter what i type in here.

as of late i've lost something, i just really hate it here in this empty form of desolace, and i can't tell if i'm going to be able to get out of this situation in one peace.

i know i don't have a lot going for me, and i don't know if it really matters, but i keep thinking about beth, and the way thing's had to be, if i had stayed would it have changed thing's between us, would i have been a diffrent person? probably, but perhaps things are better this way. she dosen't get to be dissapointed with me, and i don't have to be a screw up at something else.

however, i am sorry for leaving the way i did, and i'm sorry that thing's couldn't have been diffrent between us.

i just wish i could tell her this instead of typing it here, either way though i still feel like dying, i doubt she even remembers me any more, much less if she would care.

thing's happen and ppl move on, i guess, so because i'm probably never going to hear from her or get much of anywhere in the rest of my life, this is going to be the last journal entry that i make.

P.S. by now i should have everything deleted on my page.

RaKH
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